What Do I Gotta Lose?
№96 — Out of the Rain (demo)
organizing an accident is a weekly newsletter where I leak home demos of unreleased songs, first draft lyrics, thoughts on the creative process, & dispatches from music life in Paris.
Listen to “Out of the Rain” (demo):
This song was written on February 7, 2019
This is demo leak #96
Greetings from Paris,
As we round the bend of yet another tempestuous presidential election in America, the stakes are high (but higher than living through the pandemic under Trump or January 6th? TBD!), and I’m sick in bed, doing my damnedest to limit phone use, opting for books over needlessly monitoring the news.
I’m also sending today’s demo leak one day early, as I know the rest of the week will be one giant doom-scroll blackout. My only hope is that this short piece of music, albeit melancholy, can provide a little nutrition for your diet in these troubling days ahead.
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About the track: I rarely leave a song half-finished, preferring to edit out any mediocrity later rather than attempting to pick back up in the middle. This song, written in February 2019, might be in my hall of fame of undercooked ideas; the dark synth strings, swung drum machine loop, and particularly catchy pre-chorus—it deserved more love than I was originally able to give. Let me know what you think.
Keep your head up, turn that phone off, and RIP to the great Quincy Jones.
With love,
Ryan
“Out of the Rain” lyrics
Meet me out of the rain
We should never be lonely, again
You could show me the way
You could humble me slowly
What’ll I gotta do baby
What do I gotta prove
Cause I outta learn someday
Oh I gotta earn you
What do I gotta lose, baby
What if I gotta choose
Cause I only work for ya
Oh I gotta earn you
So take me
Back to your
Back to your
Back to your heart
These lyrics were written in February 2019.
From the vault
What I’m listening to this week
What I’ve been reading
Jonathan Lethem - Chronic City
Eva Illouz - Le 8-octobre
Check out my previous demos and writing via the Substack archive + discover my official music releases on Spotify, Apple, or your platform of choice. Find me on all socials at @thisryanegan.
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