organizing an accident is a weekly newsletter where I leak home demos of unreleased songs, first draft lyrics, thoughts on the creative process, & dispatches from music life in Paris.
Listen to “Heart from My Sleeve” (demo):
This song was written on September 30, 2020
This is demo leak #78
Greetings from the south of France,
Our little family is spending the week with friends in Eygalières, a small village thirty minutes from Avignon. It’s July after all—from now through August we can begin indulging in vacation time that would send the average American into catatonic shock.
🇺🇲 Happy fourth, by the way 🇺🇲
Today’s demo leak is a song written in September 2020. My ambition at the time was to write more and more pop-leaning songs that I could potentially give to other artists. As is often the case, I did not precisely hit the mark, and so the result lives on in a sort of creative purgatory where the present and future collide, creating our true voice.
With love,
Ryan
“Heart from My Sleeve” lyrics
It took a lot of me to call you back
Between the whiskey and the morning sadness
I practiced alone
There’s really nothing more to say for that
Yeah, I’ve been listening through walls
This madness, it taxes us all
So don’t let me down, let me in
‘Cause some roads are bound to begin
There you go, take my heart from my sleeve
Gimme hope, I was born to believe
No you don’t make it easy for me
Didn’t know, I was lost in the deep
Gimme hope, I’ve been dying to see
No you don’t make it easy for me
Open my eyes to see you staring back
I sell my things until my past gets lighter
Retired at last
These different sides of me you can’t give back
And in my dreams I've got just one desire
Our fire will last
So don’t let me down, let me in
‘Cause some roads are bound to begin
There you go, take my heart from my sleeve
Gimme hope, I was born to believe
No you don’t make it easy for me
Didn’t know, I was lost in the deep
Gimme hope, I’ve been dying to see
No you don’t make it easy for me
These lyrics were written in September 2020.
From the vault
What I’m listening to this week
What I’ve been reading
David Grossman - A Horse Walks into a Bar
Check out my previous demos and writing via the Substack archive + discover my official music releases on Spotify, Apple, or your platform of choice. Find me on all socials at @thisryanegan.
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